Friday, November 21, 2008

HFH: Fat Ticker Friday

Hot for the Holidays

I'll check in first again this week. Not a great week but not a horrid week either. I didn't loose any weight & in fact, I gained, but it was a mere half pound. I'm okay with that. I know what I need to change & I'm continuing to work on that. My big thing is the snacky moments. I need to watch those & be diligent in finding something else to do. I also need to up the ante on my exercise. I did my one mile Leslie Sansone Walk Express video yesterday (after I did the beginner's Zumba video) & when we did the short five minutes of band exercise near the end - I just about died. My arms were so tired! I typically do her two mile workout with a longer upper body workout with the band. Yikes. It wasn't pretty. So I need to keep working on that - obviously.

On to this week's theme....

What was your "Aha!" moment? What was that moment you realized that life could not continue for yourself on the path you were on and that you had to dig deep and change your lifestyle and improve your health? Was it something someone said to you? A picture you saw of yourself? Was it a test result you got back after a doctor visit?

It finally dawn on me not too long ago - just before I signed up for this weight challenge - that it was up to me to figure this out. I have the head knowledge. I know what I need to do. I just need to do it. I need to do it so I can live long enough to see my sons grow up. I realized it when I told people that diabetes will never kill me - it's the complications of this disease that will kill me. It won't be high blood sugars in and of itself. It will be the heart disease caused by those sugars. It will be kidney failure caused by those sugars. I need to get the fat off of my body. I need to be as healthy as I can possibly be. I need to do everything I need to do to live a long & healthy life. I'm on the way.

When I first started this challenge, I had lost about five pounds on my own. Then I began yo-yo'ing like crazy. I'd loose a pound or two & then gain them back. Week after week. It was so depressing. But I didn't do anything about it - not what I needed to do. Then I joined Hot for the Holidays & it was the jump start I needed. Since then I've lost 10 pounds from my highest weight. I'm determined to make it work this time.

Sometimes I wonder what it will be like to be thinner again. I used to be. I want to be what I used to be even though sometimes the thought of it all scares me. Because you see, inside, inside I'm still what I used to be. It's only when I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror that I realize I'm not the same person. It's time to make what the world sees match up with how I feel & I'm determined to get there.


  1. Hang in there! :) Your doing good...

  2. you are doing so great! your losses since you started are awesome!!!

    i felt the same exact way for the longest time -- i thought i was destined to be what i was. that i would never be able to be the person i wanted to be, the person i was so long ago. but i found out that's not true!!!! stay true to yourself and keep going!!! i know you can do it!

  3. I can SO relate to your last paragraph! I'm right there with you.


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