my mom & me - Thanksgiving 2007 or 2006...
From my journal today:
"Happy Birthday, Mom. It still feels like a dream more often than not. It feels like she's still there. I only need to call. I talked to my Mom almost daily and now it's been 10 months since I spoke to her. And that number will only continue to grow. Happy Birthday indeed."
Today starts the long list of January birthdays we have in my family: my youngest son, both my parents, both my sisters, my grandfather (who is also no longer with us - he would have been 96). my niece and my FIL. Sadly we no longer have Mom here to celebrate with. She would have turned 66 today. She joked last year that she was going to get kicked off Medicare since she spent most of January in the hospital. It wasn't until February that we finally got a diagnosis of leukemia/lymphoma & then she ended up with MRSA in March. Sadly she had no immune system left to fight off that super-bug.
I'm not sure there is anyway to heal from this loss but time so I wait. Each day gets slightly easier but on days like today, it's so very hard. I continue to cling to my all time favorite verse:
"For I know the plans I have for you,"
declares the LORD,
"plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future."